March 29, 2013
I feel like today was a big milestone for me in my spiritual life. It was the first time since I became a Christian that I prayed out loud, with boldness in my voice.
I have never prayed this way in front of an audience before, but it felt great. There were three times that I prayed today: the first time being this afternoon for the new chemotherapy, mylotarg, that it would wipe out the cancer cells only and not harm the healthy cells at all, thus bringing me closer to recover of a normal body. My mom said there were five people beside me who kept amening my prayers. My mom felt they all cared about me very much and were touched by my prayer and my strong faith.
The second bold prayer was for a friend I made here at the hospital. She's Buddhist, but since she works here in the hospital, she's open to all religions. I suggested that she attend an Easter service this Sunday and let me know what she thinks of it. People think I'm a pretty good guy, but I have all these bad things happening to me like leukemia and low immune systems. According to karma, this makes no sense, I pointed out to her. It's good things happen to good people, not bad things happen to good people, right? But if this were true, I would not have cancer, and I would be completely healthy. Anyways, I just pointed out the flaws in her philosophy and told her to let me know her thoughts on the Easter story on Monday.
I also prayed for her, that she would be able to know the living God instead of dead philosophies. I prayed for her to know the still-alive, living God, who listens to and answer our prayers.
My third bold prayer was at the end of the chemo (with my two nurses beside me), that it would only kill the cancer cells and not harm the normal, healthy cells at all, puttimg me on the path toward transplant and, ultimately, complete health. I also prayed for the nurses and their families to be blessed just as they have blessed me. I prayed all of this in Jesus' all-powerful, mighty name, amen. Hallelujah
Brian
留言列表
